Scream

Thoughts

This is one of my favourite pieces. It's a little weird and conveyed how I felt at the time. It seemed as though I had a head full of problems, thoughts, questions, ideas, new memories, intrusive thoughts, and little flashbacks - a busy head! However, anytime I tried to talk about anything nothing came out. Just white. Despite feeling like I was screaming, I was trapped alone in emotional chaos. My therapist at the time questioned whether I should look into alexithymia (describing people who have issues understanding/identifying/feeling emotion). Later, I found out during my university work that it is sometimes referred to as the silent scream. I immediately thought of this rendition. I don't think I have alexithymia, I was just so out of touch and disconnected that it has taken me years to understand what I feel. Perhaps it is a passing state rather than a trait.